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Name: Gina
Gender: Female
Interests: .Writing. smoking. listening to music. suicide girls. glamour vs. sleeze. broke down boys. bleeding mascara. dark colors. some neon colors. porn. alternative press mags. having fun. being spontaneous. tattoos. peircings. gauges. hair dye. jolly ranchers. "old faded band shirts". dressing funny. jokes. halloween. i should stop now.. my list is way too long.. i could keep going.. and going.. and going.. but i'll stop...
Expertise: I don't think i'm that good at anything really.. I love writing though.. thats my only big thing.. from poems to short stories.. i love writing...
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
MSN: amidnightlight@hotmail.com
ICQ:  i see what?
Member Since:
8/2/2005
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| I have so much to say... I just... I don't know how to get it out... | | |
| I regret to inform everyone that this will be my last xanga entry... and this entry is dedicated to a very.. very special person that has been there for me... been there for me since i can remember...
Dear Daniel Pressley,
Man... A whole year i've known you. It feels so much longer doesn't it? From you making fun of me because of how I dressed, to me dating you're friend, to me and you finally actually getting to know eachother and hang out. Make fun of eachother for stupid things that we would say.. The whole "Elephunt?" and the "breeeaaaadddsttiiiccckkkk" .. you have no idea how good it felt to be apart of an inside joke with a person that I absolutly adore.. and that's you Daniel... I look up to you for everything... Anything that I have a promblem... Who do I turn to?... You. You're so emotionally strong. No matter what situation Daniel.. You always looked to the horizon.. and I'm going to do that Daniel.. I'm going to be strong. I'm going to show you that you were such a big impact on me and that you in my life was more than anyone could've ever asked for.. What a friend... What a great fucking friend. We won't say goodbye.. 'cause good-bye's are forever Daniel. And this isn't forever. You promised Daniel. No matter what it fucking takes we'll see eachother again. We have to... I love you. I adore you. I'm going to miss you more than you can realize... So many stories.. So many inside jokes... So many memories... And i will keep that with me wherever i go.. WHERE EVER I GO DANIEL... you will always be in my heart.. you will always be there... and if i ever get sad and lonely.. i'll just think of yuo.. and think about how gangster we were man... :) ... to put it blunt (man i need one of those) I love you Daniel... and no matter what.. no matter what time it is here.. if you ever need to talk to me... just call me.. you know my number.. just call... i dont' care... what time it is...
I'm going to miss you Mister!!...
I love you...
xoxo Ginarrr... | | |
| [1] Name one person who is on your mind right now?
Jose...As always...
[2]. Do you think your life has been good so far?
Its been getting better
[3]. Where is the last place you went?
Gym
[4]. Who is the last person who called?
My dad?.. wow... how much loser am I?
[5]. Who is the last person you texted?
Rick
[6]. What's the name of your first love?
not important
[7]. Do you still talk to him/her?
not really
[8]. What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?
Exactly one week away from a year...
[9]. Why did it end?
Doesn't matter.. Its over..
[10]. Ever cheated on anyone?
Regretfully once
[11]. Been cheated on?
unfortunatly
[12]. Have you ever thought that you were in love?
knew it
[13]. Ever been caught having sex?
HAHHAHAHAHHA yup
[14]. Have you ever slept with someone on the first date?
Nope.. But a one time thing
[15]. What is your favorite body type to cuddle with?
The cuddly Jose kind
[16]. Do you look like your mom or dad?
Told like both
[17]. Do you have siblings?
One older brother
[18]. Do you smile often?
Been told to do it more..
[19]. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
He better be
[20]. Could you be a vegetarian?
nope
[21]. Are you sentimental?
to an extent
[22]. If you had to get married tomorrow, who would you marry?
No contest jose
[23]. Groomsmen/Bridesmaid?
Never thought of it?? it be kind of pyscho to think of it...
[24]. Who would you want to catch the bouquet/garter?
the person who catches it
[25]. Do you know anyone who wants to marry you?
He better be planning to keep me
[26]Ever thought someone was "the one"?
thought one before....
[27]. What do you think your wedding song will be?
I'm not scary and think of that...
[28]. What is your middle name?
Mae
[29]. Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity):
love
[30]. Do you wish on stars?
...use to...
[31]. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off??
Hell no
[32]. What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
Silk Worms
[33]. Would you kill someone?
I'm capable of doing so
[34]. When did you last cry?
Don't wanna say
[35]. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play you?
The world...
[36]. Have you ever met anyone famous?
everyone meets famous people, nobody cares.
[37]. Do you like your handwriting?
Yeah
[38]. Who are you jealous of?
Angelina Jolie?... So sexy... So damn sexy.. and so rich...
[39]. What is your favorite lunchmeat?
ROAST BEEF!!!
[40]. Do you have any bad habits?
biting my cuticles, counting my steps *ocd*, waking up at 4:30 everymorning for water...*ocd?*
[41]. Are you a friendly person?
not really
[42]. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
probably not, people are only my friend when they realize i am how i am and you just need to understand the way i act and not take it personally
[43]. Do looks matter?
to me? looks matter to everyone, but everyone has different tastes. What I think is hot might not be to you. So yeah. looks matter, and i've got me a sexy one :P
[44]. What is your favorite school subject?
English?
[45]. Are you keeping a secret from the world?
Doesn't everyone?
[46]. Do you regret anything?
negative... | | |
| Everything in my life is exactly where things should be... I have friends... A wonderful boyfriend... Everything except my household, but I've learned to cope with that... Everything I could want is right there... So tell me this. Why do I feel like shit? I haven't updated in a long while... Simply because I had nothing to say... I have a loss for words lately.. Everything I hear or say seems so stale... Repetitive... Or maybe I'm honestly losing my mind. Everyday seems like a day of deja vu... As if I've lived it... Each day seems this way... Are we stuck in a routine? I think we are. Each day... I get up.. Brush my teeth.. Get online.. See who's online... Call Jose.. Get ready.. and then go out.. and if I don't go out.. Then I get ready then get something to eat.. Then get back online... And dont' even get my started on school... We are all slaves to a routine.. Like a habit we cannot break...
If life is such a great gift.. Why is our reward death?... And for all you godsy people... don't give me that.. well if you're good you'll go to heaven and if you're naughty you'll burn in hell.. I have my own big theory on that... so bug off... We live life... Day after day... Beat after beat.. Meal after meal.. Breath after breathe... Tears after tears... Heart break after heart break... Go through such obstacles... Just for death... So I'm a pessimistic skank bitch... You can like inbetween my big toe and the other one next to it... and what ever you do.. dont' fucking comment me and have something negative to say about my entry... if you dont' like it.. like i said.. bug off...
"opinions are like assholes... everyone has one..." -Grandpa Eugene Martinez
Song of zee day
Listen to eet..
----------stare at the sun (acoustic)------by-----Thrice--------
I sit here clutching useless lists
And keys for doors that don't exist
I crack my teeth on pearls
I tear into the history
Show me what it means to me in this world
Yeah in this world
'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind
I see the parts but not the whole
I study saints and scholars both
No perfect plan unfurls
Do I trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Yeah in this world
'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind (till I understand or go blind)
I know that there's a point I've missed
A shrine or stone I haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But I can't help feeling like I'm
Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign (waiting for a sign)
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes (and I won't close my eyes)
Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
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| Song of zee day
Listen to eet..
---i beg your pardon i never promised you a rose garden------by----the suicide machines----
(from the smashing picture show... SLC PUNK)
I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden
ran along with the sunshine there's gotta be a little rain sometime.
When you take you gotta give so live and let live and let go oh oh oh oh
I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden
I could promise you things like big diamond rings
but I don't find roses growin' on stalks of clover
so you better think it over.
When it's sweet talking you could make it come true
I would give you the world right now on a silver platter
but what would it matter.
So smile for a while and let's be jolly love shouldn't be so melancholy
Come along and share the good times while we can.
I could sing you a tune and promise you the moon
but if that's what it takes to hold you I'd just as soon let you go
but there's one thing I want you to know.
So look before you leap still waters run deep
and there won't always be someone to pull you out.
And you know what I'm talking about.
So smile for a while and let's be jolly love shouldn't be so melancholy
Come along and share the good times while we can.
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